Ironic

This will be a random post that only 2 people will understand, one of whom I'm sure probs does not read my blog. But I figured I had nothing better to do and it was worth it, for me, to post!

It's funny how life likes to throw things in your face. I was doing so well until today. Today my thoughts broke lose, I guess you could say my brain had an overload of mania? Yes, that sounds about right.

Today I'm driving in my car and this song happens to be playing.....

"And I don't know

This could break my heart or save me

Nothing's real

Until you let go completely

So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving

So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I'm still sober

Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

But I know it's never really over

And I don't know

I could crash and burn but maybe

At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me

So I won't worry about my timing,

I want to get it right

No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing

Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know

It's never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I'm still standing here

Three months and it's still harder now

Three months I've been living here without you now

I still remember it. "

....as I am driving past a part of town where they have signs like this pretty much everywhere....

Now I know this doesn't make sense to you, but it has MAJOR significance to me. But no, that is not all. Kaydee and I went to Kohls to find her some shorts to wear for camp. Just being there reminded me of times and occasions and people I had been there with before. Then Kaydee and I started talking about something about her which TOTALLY was pretty much a little exactly like something that happened with me. Then at youth JJ talked a lot about camp which made me reminisce about camp last year and all the people that went. Not only that, "Mighty to Save" was played. I had to leave because I knew I would break down if I listened to it. Then Jeremiah 29:11 was talked about. Enough said.

That was a lot for me to handle in one day. It makes my brain think. And that is never a good thing. Where is my 'turn off' switch?